I recently spoke to my little brother in England; he’s 26 years old and 6 foot 2, a beautiful young man. I was 15 when he was born, and he was the happiest little boy with a great big smile and a playful, friendly spirit. I adored him, and growing up, he was my little sidekick. He was a music lover from the word go. At age six, he discovered The Beatles. He petitioned my mother to get him all their music so he could listen obsessively. He was so taken by The Beatles that he went off to a school disco dressed as Sergeant Pepper.
Our paths began to separate. I went off to travel the world when he was four, and we all know how that ended – in a psychiatric ward! When I was better, I moved away and started to rebuild my life. I saw him less and less often. I realize now that I really did move out of his little life and missed vast chunks of his childhood.
Today, my brother is finding his own way in life. He is the youngest of four and the only boy in our family. He’s been in trouble so often it’s hard to count. It’s not like I didn’t do a thousand things wrong growing up, I just rarely got caught. Recently, he joined a recovery program for his addiction to drugs and alcohol. He’s embarking on a fresh new path to follow his dreams. Well done! It takes courage to face ourselves.
My brother has always been a music man. He studied music and now produces music. He loves music. I, too, love music, and in my own way, I make music. I write songs and raps, some funny and some serious. I dream that one day we will join forces. I’ve had visions of being at Glastonbury Festival performing on the Pyramid Stage. In this vision, my brother is with me on stage. I see us there, making a difference and actualizing our dreams. Manifestation is bringing something tangible into your life through attraction and belief. If you think it, see it, and feel it, as if it is already so, it will be so.
Through my years of therapeutic work, I have learned that my brother carries a lot of the weight of our family system. The undealt with trauma and loss is passed down through the generations as anxiety, and there is plenty in our family line. I know he often feels ‘separate’ and ‘not good enough,’ and the truth is he is more than good enough and always connected.
It takes time to unravel our emotional inner life and determine what is ours and what is not.
To my only brother: you are beautiful in every way, sensitive, strong, powerful, loving, kind, and talented. You have always amazed me from the day you were born. You are always loved deeply and unconditionally, even if it doesn’t always feel that way. There is a reason for every twist and turn in life, it makes us who we are. If you can see it in your mind, feel it in your heart, and smile with ‘the having’ of it before it shows up, you can manifest it into reality. Watch this space!